未来不是梦?

How can I know 未来不是梦
when I dun have a dream
and I can't see my future?

I get depressed
by my results and dream catcher trailer
my results not even 3
and I have less than a year to achieve at least 3.5

the trailer depressed me
thoughts kept flashing my mind
god..how I gg do all this in a few years time?
am I even be able to find a job in the industry.

recently after gg to the NTU fair
make me realize
I want to go uni
I want to enter NTU
Enter either aerospace or electronics course
I want to get a degree

but I am scared
afraid that I cant accomplished
I have no discipline
I have no motivation
and I just clearly pain lazy and worthless.

damm...
Lord could you tell me what should I do to myself???